ABSOLUTELY ELEGANTLY SEDUCTIVE

+ she did it again +

2010-11-12T12:56:00.002+08:00

salams!

*stretching*
2 days MC. what else? im sick and tired of working there. Plus, GF. :(
but anyhow, babe came back. giving hopes and ran away. as usual.

; I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE.

2010-05-05T01:04:00.000+08:00

i hate it when she's like this.
haish*

+ partner +

2010-05-02T01:16:00.003+08:00

salams!

so, what do u expect wen u decide to go into a relationship?
what do u expect ur partner to have?
what about u? are u that perfect perfectionist that ur love's finding?

secure that thoughts with trust my dear. you'll get hurt even more with thoughts that doesnt really exist in you and partner. WAIT! what's love again? two person, falling in love? is there any otha means of definition? oh tell me about it.

how can u love sumone so much? tell me how? tell me. i need to know. im dying from lack of "good-treatment" from everybody. oh maybe i just think too much till i was blinded. hey wait! im an optimistic person. how can i think negatively? so yah, tell me. -.-"

i have a story. i hate my GF. (: i hate her cause i love her. she made me. but how? i felt stupid. i cant find any good qualities for me to stay and love but i did. 2 years and running. aint it true that love is blind? everything i do... i do it for u... hahaha. kay, diam.

i hope it rains tonight. it's the best when ure anywhere in ur partner's arms, rainy days, feelin' the breeze together, hug hug, kiss kiss. heh. i know i know. yada yada. but letting out everything, whatever u dislike about ur partner, really relieve ur mind and soul. i mean unless, she's an ass that doesnt accept and dun agree to it, fite's occur. but why? :(

eh ok lah, GF keep reading what im typing, saya sambung bile2 saya fwee otey? SELAMAT MALAM!

+ stronger +

2010-04-30T18:08:00.002+08:00

salams!

"....... My Boo "
anyways, congrats to me fer passing my L6.
dum dum, racing eys? hahahhaa. lu tunggu.
L7 here i come (:

GF being an ass. i dunno why :(
as much as i hate her duin this, i have to be strong in not letting her step my head like often. -.-"
and im proud of myself. no longer questioning myself why or where she is. i'd just do my own werk and continue life as it is.

love sucks. but i love being hurt. haha. ok bye.

&& STEP 1 : PUT IN MIND, HAVE CONFIDENCE AND "YOU GO GIRL"

+ that stop werd +

2010-04-28T08:57:00.001+08:00

when ure doing sumting quietly, at least COVER up.

+ what's the world gonna do +

2010-04-24T19:26:00.003+08:00

salams!

if u brainwash-ed sumbody with alot of trust and dreams,
and wen sumthing just dun go ur way, not ones, twice but everytym,
what do u do? bring them dwn, take all the trust and dreams away?
OBVIOUS.

silently making time to do thing fer sumone without her knowing.
i mean, i dunno.

as sumone who doesnt think the way ppl think abt u,
i think ure controlling.
as how i heard from other parties.
i mean u do the same but u dun force it on to me.
but wen sumthing doesnt go ur way,
this happens.
COLD WAR.

snap it girl, ure losing.

+ no point +

2010-04-09T16:34:00.002+08:00

salams!

then i shud stop thinking abt u la.
:) thanks but no thanks.
wats the use of finding u deep within wen ure not there..
im tired of stupid shits ive been thru.
i know u too.
just stop invading my bloody mind.
-

and bloody gf, uve really gone far beyond ctrl.
wen it happen b4, means happen b4.
its not like i made another game up.
but whatever it is "aku pe suke ah aku nak lpzkan kau care kurang aja"
*shake head*
nyahh bye.

alhamdulilah, i passed my 3.1
pillion-ing's next today.
haissh.

+ love +

2010-04-07T09:17:00.002+08:00

salams!

i woke up, reach hp and looks down.
u were'nt there anymore love.. my fault.
i bathe, brush my teeth and get ready.
u were'nt there anymore love.. my fault.
i went out, took the bus/train.
u were'nt there anymore love.. my fault.
i reached werk, stand along the road.
u were'nt there love.. my fault.

i dunno wat went wrong.
she was nice and i cudnt disappoint her.
so i neglected u.
i swear i din mean to do it.
u got her rmbr?
that makes me a step away each time, each day.
knowing i cnt give the happiness she gave u.
knowing "get away if u tink ure hurting her" was frm u.
i was trapped between love and lovely.

she wans to be the best.
im giving her time.
patience has its limits.
deep dwn, i know it hasnt snap fully.
"may our road interwine successfully"
EX, i love u. pls dun gv up on me.

but, if u think this is IT.
insyaallah, facts will murder me inside.
i wish u lucks and all the best in future endeavors.
may 5 years be the most valuable memories in ur hart.

love, "the girl with the pink ring"

+ dearest +

2010-02-10T02:08:00.000+08:00

exception has to be strong.
im always with u.
when, how?

abeh spongebob tuu mane? :(
k bye.

2010-01-24T01:05:00.000+08:00

she left me with no options.
and so im not gonna entertain anyone!
bye.

+ whoever it may concern +

2010-01-18T01:09:00.002+08:00

salams!

so it started wen u cnt trust ur partner and always think negatively towards them. u know u dowana think abt it in a very bad way but u cnt help it. so how? what should u do?

so she left, leaving her with all sorts of reason to deal with. what's the point of staying wen her dun evn trust and when she had tried her best to be the best. jap, korg faham tk ni? heh.

its just that u hafto learn to respect ur partner u see. in all aspect. u know when u think she's lying, ask nicely. if she doesnt fulfill ur needs, tell her nicely. everything nicely ok?

ok sleepy already.

; YOU CHANGED THE HOPES YOUVE GIVEN.

2010-01-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

i have been wronged and accused.
so, what should i do?

+ yea, rite. ure the one +

2010-01-16T14:01:00.002+08:00

salams!

i am feeling super bad.
it feels as tho im gonna explode.
its really not fair.
i dunno eh.

any, gg ktv. den bowling.
wake u sleepyhead dum dum!!
she sleeps like pig (:
but i still love her.
kay bye.

+ what's the use? +

2010-01-13T02:18:00.002+08:00

salams!

menses cramp is killin' yaw. and tadi monyet cute tau. haha. i mengadu at her then she angkat me towards her and gosok2 my tummy. pastu tido lek. -.-" giler.

and cuzzy ask for his special gift. since his bdae was a was. tsk.

-

my mind's confused. this or that. help me choose? (:

; KAU PUN TEGA MEMILIH SYURGA WALAU TERPAKSA MENGORBAN NYAWA.

+ promises +

2010-01-11T18:53:00.003+08:00

salams!

having to promise sumting in life has always been broken by many. why? maybe cause they thought that making promises only require saliva and not any responsibilities or any fault that may come in if they were to break it in future. that's general.

how about if promises made in relationship? will it be the same thinking? u know like, "Baby, promise u won't lie" and i go, "ok" but when sumting just come out frm nower and i had to lie, and sumhw my bf got to know abt that lie, he goes around lying to me. wait, yah ppl may say its fair but in real conclusion, my bf is actually making me feel that we can break that promise if my other partner starts 1st. (:

everyone has many different thinking and likings. like, if one may like their partner not to be a control freak, i like it the other way round. NO NO, dun get the wrong idea, it sumhow shows that my partner do care, and ya know, jealousy means LOVE. hahaha. and i wan my partner to trust me in wateva i may wana do in life.

u know.. u know.. yada yada.
-

my wish fer now is
> to graduate in LL.B. ok da.

; A WISE MAN LEARNS BY THE MISTAKES OF OTHERS, A FOOL BY HIS OWN. -quoted.

2009-11-03T21:32:00.000+08:00

everyone has problems.
and im having one now :(

= messed up but who cares =

2009-10-13T10:39:00.002+08:00

salams!

i finally got mood to blog :D
but i dunno wer to start eys.
2009 is ending in few mths time and ill welcome 2010.

What do u do when the person who had been mean to u few years back, came back and give a whole lot of sincerity (that's what she said). will u trust that person back like how u used to?

So, anyways, last weekend was town-ing with gf. Fish & co and then headed to GAP. I bought her this long sleeve shirt kay. nice kay. and i was actually asking myself, what the hell am i duin back there being nice to her. sheesh. cause the plan was actually to get her outta of my system. i wonder.

kay den.. till here. ull find "hello miss Nura" really soon. byebye.

&& WHEN ONE DISAPPOINTS YOU, DONT TAKE IT TOO HARD. YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT LIES BEHIND THOSE DISAPPOINTMENTS.

= bdae =

2009-08-14T12:49:00.002+08:00

back. heh.

ive a lot to update but dunno wer to start. ill try (:

- KITYYYYYYYYYKAH, pls send me my bdae pixxies.

wer shud i start again.. oh yea, firstly, THANKS LOVES fer e wishes tho many are still coming in, i thank u guys in advance and belated. heh.

i really din wana celebrate my 21st. bt still, i went seoul garden with kityy. den hotel. eeeeeeeeeh, sane ader iqah and zara kay. but zara da go home cause dier mabok. heh. den ader lagy bab2 yg tertentu. ya allah malas la nk type.

2nd august , i went out with dearest cuzzy. LJS. and he said "can u pls play some romantic songs, its her bdae". heh. sweet kan. den went fer karaoke. at paragon, he surprised me with flowers. mind you, a dozen of roses. huge. mcm baby. heh. and his voice, *faints* haish.

and.. i cnt rmbr wat else to update. but whatever it is,

"IF U WANA GIVE UP, ASK YOURSELF, Y U HOLD ON IN THE FIRST PLACE"
k bye. heh. kityyyyy.

aku cinta Ian.
sungguh.

HAPPPPPPPY DAY TO ALL.

= lil updates =

2009-08-14T11:45:00.001+08:00

salams!

i am so renewed. and oh, bdae celebrations went on evn afta august 1st. evn now. malas la nk update. heh. wen ive time, i will kay? need to freshen my memories. tsk. b back soon. (:

= happy birthday baby =

2009-07-31T13:09:00.000+08:00

salams!

1309 hours.
in 11 more hours, i will turn 21. tsk. old.
-

yest nyt, afta putting dwn the phone with Ket, I browse thru my phone to delete stuffs. and then, i cried cause this is wat i came across

"I VOW MY WHOLE LIFE, YOU WILL BE MY ONLY WIFE"

and then i cried again. pathetic is it.
-

last year, she came by, meet me and left again.
this year, another she aint making my day a better one tmr.
tsk. go with the flow.

do u wan to celebrate my bdae ? (: haha.
im changing my contact number but hasnot got every of my frens number.
pls text me urs (: 91015421.
i lost my phone exactly 2 mths ago. tsk.

oh oh oh! babe, if ure reading this, pls call me. i wan my mum's gift to me. the flower white pearl like color necklace. i just realised it's still with u. if its not there, find it cause i love it. thanks.

i wish fer a miracle to happen. i wish fer u by. i dunno y.

-AND TO FRENS, i will try to go as wat u plan fer me. but ill be at my "room" if u dun hear from me (:

&& CLOSER AND LET ME FEEL YOUR WARMTH ONES AGAIN. im addicted all over.

= soon =

2009-07-30T13:57:00.001+08:00

salams!

she always spoil the surprises.
she always say to make me come back.
and i hate u.

ok bye.

oh, AUGUST 1ST!! :D

= all the things she said =

2009-07-17T15:04:00.002+08:00

salams!

a week to hold on.
just one.

if it fails again, den i think, ill just give up.
no use holding it back.

&& UNTUNG TIDAK MALAHAN RUGI.

= hello world (: =

2009-07-10T15:14:00.003+08:00

salams!

KIWI, durian & duckkkkkkkk satay wer? (:
junior's back fer more food. more "mummy, nak tu, nak ni" nyah.

and so, will send papaya to werk. i tink. and fri nyt & sat morning, ill be busy with tuitions. and afta tuition, jom keluar :D

bdae celebration? oh dun ask. aint duin anything. ok bye.

&& I WISH UPON A STAR, THAT EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE JUST FINE.

= pain =

2009-07-06T13:17:00.001+08:00

i have APPLES!! APPLES!!
kity (:

= lies =

2009-06-29T14:35:00.003+08:00

salams!

"baby, how are you? did u make mummy angry. dun be naughty oke?"

NICE.

anyways, im ... *achooooooooooo* oke, that explains all. H1N1, not. insyaallah. in sick basically.

Andaikan malam tiada pernah kan berakhir
Setiap ku bersamamu mungkin tak berujung
Betapa rindu ini tak pernah mati
Kekasih hatiku hanyalah engkau

; when will stop lying?

&& LOVE SICK

= love ending so soon =

2009-06-23T11:12:00.002+08:00

salams!

good morning humans, earthworms, flowers and trees. it's a beautiful day.

dear exception, make mistakes, learnt frm it. but still, different people has different personality. she may go crazy over it but not me. im different. im by myself. i have been by my own handling this.

cause anyone who said abt taking care of me, aint up for it. they cnt evn tc of themselves. and oh boy, sumhow my condition is still stable. its only a mth. i dun wan to regret the most wen i chose an alternative. to kip but ego says no. ask fer help? nvr did.
-

and as much as i din wana see her face, her name or watever which is related, she appeared. gving me the shock and down attitude. cause babe, b4 this, ure the only one i waited fer so long. and it may change nw. drastically, its has to change. its over and done with.
-

and darls, stop pretending to love wen u aint. evn e "bestest date that has happen in my life" person cud 4get our anni. wen u said we always had a chance to but cudnt grab it cause we'r afraid to get hurt and infact, it will happen one day just has to slip away, ure grabing love via elsewer too. and the best part is, ~~i cnt seemed to leave.~~ i wonder.
-

; she's keeping quiet again.
and i hate this.

&& BILA EASOK HARI DATANG LAGY, KU CUBA HADAPI SEMUA INI, MESKI TANPAMU. meski tanpamu.

= bike pracs =

2009-06-22T13:39:00.002+08:00

salams!

this is e 3rd time eys i blog. pe mendak pat class. werk is done evn before my class went fer break. and i kip listening to "di antara kalian frm cirul n chico. k kental. bye ah.

oh, i blog to tell the whole world that im continueing my bike prac like finally. hahaha. da ah bye.

= engagement =

2009-06-22T11:57:00.002+08:00

salams!

"baby, i know when im pleasing u or not sweety, bt i never got anywhere near ur heart"

i wonder whether i am pleased with whatever he did fer me. to sidetrack a lil, facebook mepek ah. idk why but i cant connect well with facebook. hehe. owite, back to e topic, i wish i cud settle down pretty soon.

and, CONGRATS cuzzen Sulastri. yest was her semi big day when she got engaged to Rudy. shoo sweet. haha. and apart from it, i wanted to tell her coursemate but idk hw to cntc her. sheesh. idiot.
and then again, i took off just fer her. and end up, im the only cuzzen who's there fer her la kays. sweet tk? and Su, mane bunga aku?!!! sheesh tipu! awaiting fer ur big day babe.
-

bubble tea sounds nice ryt nw. and im gonna buy oreooooooo. junior nak k? nt baby. at ths point of time, im having headache.
-

i cried, i shout fer help. i called her but her number was unavailable.
she knows my story. she knows my black history.
but when it happen again, she wasnt there fer me. :(
kental ah lu member.

&& AKU DISINI MENUNGGUNYA, MASEH BERHARAP DIDALAM HATINYA.

= wishes =

2009-06-22T10:58:00.003+08:00

salams!

"mummy.. i wanna go home..."

today, class sucks. :( EOQ?? and im like.. "ape sak nih bnde" cause honestly, i dun evn noe what the FFFFFFFF is that. *faints* nk pon can? and den if i do, Kityyyyyyy's gonna kill me. oh wells..
-

Khairil called me yest nyt. acc-ing him talk till he reach home, changed and rolling on bed. he ask me to come down to his roadshow today, but i dunno if im in e mood to go. cause im often lazy afta sch. hehe. oh takoyaki fer 1 whole day tkkn kenyang syg oii!
-

that day wen me, iqa and kity lepak-ing my homey watch anugerah together, i was so fond of chirul. like, eh.. nice eh his voice and i strongly believe that most contestants choose the wrong songs last week. -.-"
-

; age difference.
how?

&& BAGAIMANA CARANYA UNTUK, MERUNTUHKAN KERASNYA HATIMU.

= beach party, ladies day outt =

2009-06-20T16:25:00.003+08:00

salams!

din go fer beach party. cause i feel utterly lazyyyyyyyyy and so sushi & gals bytching later with zarah ltr on at town. its been so long that ive nvr put asyd my time fer my gfs. oh wells.

1 mth has passed. exactly a mth now. and im still delaying checkups. and idk y. and putri, will u be there to catch wen i fall. ill pomish to text u b4 hand :D LOLs. and oh yah, kity mmg biadap eys. jeles kan putri. lyk ths, baby buy fer putri jek k? dowan gv special attn to kityyyyy anym.
*BWEKS*

sumtime nw, i wonder y ppl is always pretending to be nice when they're not. pretending they like wen they dun. pretending to love wen thy dun even have feelings at all. and wen one commit to u, but one said "not ready fer commitments" hw do u ans that?

wat if one gvs u all e attn u need but nvr mention of togetherness. eh ok, da start mepek. da la.. nk siap. calohcamano. (:

; Arqyn & Yaya.
its coming soon.
closer.
like at last!

&& SUARA DENGARKANLAH AKU, APA KHABARNYA, PUJAAN HATIKU? sini menunggu.

= butch, andros =

2009-06-19T15:49:00.003+08:00

salams!

today, outta blue i browse thru ppl's frensta. and i go like *puke* wen sum ppl upload pixxies of themselves and put a caption like "im hot" or "sexysexy" or whatever u cn imagine. well, no harm la darling.. if u are really HOT AND SEXY, dun mind at all. u yall know, sum fat ass bytch also put a caption like that, no comments darling, but i cnt deny, sum fatt gals are hot okeh? :) and yah.. i noe sum1 who's like that. not cntcting anym tho.. and that's nt ur pobl to know y. oh wells..

--
and a fren said hello in msn just a moment ago and she start to voice out wat she tot abt her x butch. she fcuking hate this butch sia. like well, hw she msn-ed me. sumhw its like dejavuuuuu wen nt long ago, anotha gal said the same ting abt her x butch. guess butches nwadays saham da turun ye? oh prove me wrong. and ... andro nw adays are becoming popular. one goes saying without tinking, "andro has better attitude den butch" a certain extend i said. cause rmbr, not all butch are bad and not all andro's are betta. ;)

&& EASY SAID THAN DONE

= hanging =

2009-06-18T13:03:00.002+08:00

salams!

as much as I hate to admit, I began to lose interest in things ard me. LIFE, LOVE and suchsss. why must life be this way wen life knows my love is always leading me on and when trust is there, it was gone cause "it can never be the same again fer us". and wen i was having a delicious moment with love, y must life be e bad guy to ruin everyting and take love away frm me? understanding the situation may be hard but being patient to read and think doesnt exist anymore. y must u be the barrier? and y must U change?
--

u keep our love hanging babe. wen there was me and u. and u said to me, "one day sugarr, that day will come". hw many "one day" frm "one person" must i hear?

; baby, we have always the time to make it official.
but we always keep it hanging.
cause no one wana be hurt.

&& LIFE, BE GOOD AND GIVE LOVE. LOVE, BE NICE AS LIFE IN NEED. super in need of you baby.

= blogskin =

2009-06-04T14:50:00.002+08:00

salams!

been busy, tired.
ill public this blog fer now tho its under maintainance (:
k go.

&& IN A SPLIT SECOND, THE WORLD SEEMED UNFAIR AND CRUEL TO U, BUT Y?

= happy days =

2009-05-21T14:53:00.003+08:00

salams!

starting to do what i did in RP, pon-ing! :D damn. & my godsis ALWAYS knows whether im in sch or not and there she goes saying "adek.. dun tell me ure nt in sch?" heee. oooopsy!

& oh, i just change blogskin, that ans y i private ts blog fer a lil while. ((: sowie k? and zariina darlin, baby tk jahat. baby baek okeh? syg u la k? ( im urs (: )

ive been sleepin late, and waking up early. tis is bad okeh? constant migraine, and guess what, ive been making everyone happy. -.-" so well..
---------

i wonder. like tell me sumting aite, if u have a bf/gf and u outta nower, he/she ask fer a breakup. and his/her reason was... "i just wana be alone". what will u do? let's just say, u accept it, shut up, went drinking, doing stupid stuffs and suddenly a "stranger" went to u and comfort u. so this stranger wanted to noe what happen n you being so naive, told that stranger. so, this stranger actually noe your bf/gf and this stranger did gv prove dat, he/she actually is toking abt the person u cried over. "i heard that ur bf/gf is a player". so and suddenly, tis stranger wanted to be there, care and love. so u accept him/her. wooohoooo. and so wen u met ur bf/gf, u ask again.. "Y?" when evntually, u did ntg wrong ryt? he/she cnt ans, instead he/she turn e table round and said that he/she's just playing u out. just imagine if u really did kill urself fer a Fcuking Joke??? haha. funny. (: and now how many bf/gfs u have?? two? tell me abt it. hah!
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and oh, sumting happen in sch. in my class today there's tis andro. so me n my frens went dwn n bought snacks. n wen i saw tis andro, i ask her, "nt eating?" and she ans, "waiitng fer u to treat me la dear" i laugh and turn back to her saying "oh ok. ill ask my gf's permission 1st k? ;).. oops" and she said the same ting.. "oooops!" it was funny indeed if i were to tell thru face. cause she dunno im bend. (: ok go.
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ok baby have to stop here, got test oii. haven study. hehe. lovelove.

; putri, take care!
dun strached!
ill slap u.

&& KU TAK AKAN MENDUSTAKAN CINTAMU, OH KASIHKU :)

= things just shud be mention =

2009-05-14T19:19:00.003+08:00

salams!

people nowadays aint got any betta to do. reading blogs/article in the net and/or sum plc elses and well convey it to ppl. basically, tis is good but dun let it affect otha's. plus and if this ppl convey good msges ard, its no big deal yaw.

sumone has been reading my blog n tellin ppl abt it. like WTH. my blog isnt put to private cause i guess whatever i type here is just merely what i feel at this moment of tym. and i wana share it with ppl. but only fer their eyes. u read, u shud just shut the F* up. and oh yah, i din noe that my blog has been a talk of the town. wooooohoooo~ (((((:

&& UKUR BAJU DIBADAN SENDIRI

2009-05-08T15:45:00.002+08:00

stop the game pls. im tired. we wan, we need. no one else matters.
wen ure ready, u noe wer to find me. u noe hw to get me.im still here. waiting. time is ticking sweetheart..ill hold till i can. ill fall.. sooner or later.. w/o u.

= 13th August 2005, Lovestories =

2009-05-08T15:25:00.002+08:00

salams!

i know u. i fcuking know u! who else haf ive been waiting? its u. no one else. YES, ure sucha a heartbreaker boy. ure still a player, u are still babe.

let's just put it this way.. being obedient, naive and strongwill wifey, waiting fer u to be home, sleep, tok, hug n kiss me.. but ure never there. instead ure out with sumone/s whom are important to u than me. "i love u" hw many times haf i heard tt? frm u? to me? to otha gals? like, (wifey mane yg sanggup dgr hubby dier ckp i love u kat ppn laen?) like tell me babe?

til wen must i wait? 4 whole yrs by.. 4 whole years. u haf never been true to me. all ur werds cnt be trusted. but being me, i let it go n waited like a slave fer ur return. i smile seeing u happy with otha gals, laugh hearing u saying those 3 werds to all ur gfs.

i din wana leave, it bore's me. come home.. come back.. dig that feelings u had fer me, let it surface. dun keep. its US. its our happiness. its fer me.. frm u.. 13th Lovestories revealed.

; i have never love someone so hard.
i have never miss someone so bad.

&& WHAT'S *U WITHOUT *B?

= u nvr change, never ever =

2009-05-05T11:49:00.003+08:00

salams!

i was super hyper in class today. very. happy, best feelings. but later on, all my mood changed cause of tis person. tis fcuking someone who doesnt deserve to be loved by me. like all these while i din fully accept someone else in my life cause of u. & ure the most selfish person i have ever known! u never change and now, im so fcuking glad that ure nt a part of me anymore. ure so acting like a bytch. i dunno if i ever regret being with u, waiting fer u, trying to trust u back afta much much much mistakes u did, afta countless of tyms u break my hart. ure just so hartless n selfish! ure holding me tight but at the same time ure flirting n wanting to be with sumone else, who do u think i am??? i was there fer u always, since we 1st met n till now, u haf never appreciate me. never ever. u always break my rs or whoever laaaaaaaaaaaa. im so fcuking pissed with u for ruining my life. so much of I will ALWAYS LOVE U TILL THE END LA SGT! uve been mentioning this werds to all. like WHATEVER K? im s stupid to have believe u. it will soon end la k??? i will make sure this line ends.

&& SO MUCH ME THINKING URE SO TRUE, URE THE BEST AWARDING ACTOR/ACTRESS IVE KNOWN. if so u said u love me, fcuking show it bytch!

= counting =

2009-04-30T14:42:00.002+08:00

promises are always broken.
& now, i miss u.

babe, if u tink we wun get tog, pls tell me.
ure always hurting me.
but i haf always love u.
dun come back at e wrong tym again sweets.
tis tym, i am really waiting.
wen e tym is up, der'll be no turning bk.

= 1st love =

2009-04-30T14:05:00.002+08:00

salams!

tis is getting slow. its getting more complicated. i noe i did said to someone that ill wait. i haf only waited fer sumone. but... its u? are u sure, i noe u?

here's wat , someone: who do u mean it to? your first one? second world? who were u referring to? u know me. i know u do.

so i quickly browse thru texts in my hp. found this,
( Yeah. one fine day, i wanna b dat s0me0ne t0 u. Dat s0meb0dy speciaL in ur Lyfe. Just gve me tyme baby. I just cant deny that i stLL Love u swthrt. I do. )

just a quick info sweets, y made sumone wait wen u love her? or ure not sincere to be with her. i guess i could understand fer a few. i wana be with sumone but end up with sumone else. its always d case. me n my 1st love always "planned" to get together back but always din occur and both of us always seperate and went to another. y? few mths ago, we had a talk, she said we will, but i dunno wen. and till wen i haf to wait? i myself dunno. im enjoying myself with sumone i dun wana be with. so do u ryt love? i will let go of all these in my life i own, wen ure ready, come back, im always here.

; 1308

&& CAUSE ALL I WANTED WAS U ALL ALONG. baby, im still waiting.

= she's outta my life =

2009-04-28T14:18:00.002+08:00

salams!

her: lapar nyer.
him: jom mkn. i temankan.
her: (w/o tinking watsoever) oh. ok la.
him: i da abes, u?
her: da. jom ah.

well, she just noe him. & she was wondering y he is so nice to her. so he send her home and waited fer her to go out back. they went library. her fren called her cell, she tok softly, she attracted him. now, he's tryin to get close to her. -.-"

i still wonder who this someone is. haiss. pls gimme some hints. im so curious.

; secretly, im waiting fer that 1st one,
in my 2nd world.
yes you.
was it?

&& SEMAKIN TEGUH, KASIH DAN SAYANGKU

= Hari Berganti =

2009-04-27T14:41:00.002+08:00

salams!

roti john fer breakfast, oreo snow blend fer lunch.
told Kity, baby diet. hahaha. k baby mepek.
Iqah sleepover. she disturb my sleep at 4am. -.-"

- at werk, everyone was worried tat i might get too depressed & commit suicide. -.-" ni lagy mepek. c'mon guys, i wun k?

& I saw tis cute guy in RP. damn it. cute nak mampos k? but a turn off ah.. dier kai slipper. haha. i have this "ergh" feeling towards guys who wore slips.

so yest was so happy meal day. PUTRI called me up & ask if happy meal at 8am was breakfast or lunch meal? I said normal. but she mention otherwise. next, she woke me up by saying tat she's at my door. with my pyj, i opened e door with eye's half open & burok face. we had BF togeda & im happy la k. sampaikan bwk mknan utk manager baby, -.-" & sweets, u did tis cause I was stressed up the day b4. & tat's so sweetttttttttt la sgt. kankankan.

next, i wana karaoke. anyone? (:

&& SAYANG, HAYATILAH MADAH PUISIKU, LAKARAN PENA HATI, TINTA KE SUTERA CINTA. (: LOVE.

= (: =

2009-04-14T12:46:00.002+08:00

salams!

oooooooooooooh. sorry fer uber uber late updates.
i have a lot to talk abt but i just cudnt write it dwn. i have been super stupid to start my wild side again after some stupid assH act-ed like a BH. wooohooo. that's ard t explain.

well, just a brief updates, im more independent.. im working, that explains y am not updating. i made more frens. (: more more guy frens. and i cnt think of anything else. oh! ill be persuing degree insyaallah in 2011. im saving up now fer my car license and my bdae bash plus sum tings i need fer sch and life. n i tink its abt it.

my life had been more meaningful. i miss-ed a lot of ppl. i just cnt name them. im so busy to text.
andandand...

replies to my tagboard..
SOMEONE.. who are u? i mean.. err.. " what if one day im attchd, will u stll waet?"
i mean.. i wana noe.. are u e one im tinking nw? tell me tell me.

& TANPA KEBERANIAN, MIMPI TIDAK BERMAKNA.

= ;) =

2009-02-23T17:35:00.002+08:00

salams!

YOUTUBE-ing. came across Baba's site. rindunyer baby kat dier!! (: nanti 1 day baby dpt pay we go karaoke eh?

Iqah's werking now. :( and im supos to fetch but see la now what time. im still home. :D nkmu mawah k syg? nanti kan nak stayover my plc.. we spend quality time aite. ((: (darlinggiler, pls eh jgn kutok!!)

and i just check my results.. I PASSED. ;) DAMN.. so.. i passed la. ;) see babe.. i did it fer u ah. i got my diploma ah. but sorry, u chose sumting in life wich has no future. ENVY ME! so much of me nak quit and take anotha course cause i tot i wud fail. yea u see.. we planned alot and that i dunwan my FA's to suffer d way i did. hey.. i did my part and it's seen hw abt u? *wondering* hehe. ok nak tgk my dip cert tk? :D

OK part ni baby da giler. KET! jom kite g karaoke. kite bwk sume budak2 yang giler mcm u. :D den kite joget2.. pekik2 la k? JESS aku jgn lupe bwk! ok bye.

$168.87-
pls pass me before 2nd march.
thanks.

&& BISAKAH YANG BENCI DISAYANGI, BISAKAH YANG DUSTA DIMAAFI, BISAKAH TERBUKA KALBU.

2009-02-23T16:24:00.000+08:00

In silence I sit and listen,
I'm waiting with a pen in hand.
I want to write about this love
That Even I don't understand.

In this silence I hear you,
Your voice calls out my name.
Without your love to guide me,
I think I'd go insane.

In silence I sit and think,
About the time we've spent apart.
I know we haven't talked in awhile,
But you still consume my heart.

This silence kept between us,
This silence that you speak,
I fear that you won't understand,
Missing you just makes me weak.

In the silence I sit and listen,
And with this pen in hand,
I hear your voice inside my head,
Telling me you understand.

You're telling me you miss me,
You're telling me you love me.
You say that through the distance,
Our love was meant to be.

It's in this silence That I hear,
The answer that I need.
In the wind I hear your voice,
That says this Silence Speaks.

= 130608 =

2009-02-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

salams!

my days had been super fun-ner with IQAH, my super darling babygiler. oh i mean Jess sis. and in my life now, i have not been feelin so left out wen i was with my x. OH YES BUBU, U KNOW MY IQAH! haha.

10th Feb
baby went sentosa with Iqah, Jess sis and Dan bro. (pic too many to handle) so as usual, ppl went beach to have fun but we did more than fun. like at 1pm, me n Jess sis decided to drink. ok that was super "i dunno what happen to us" but so i drank SINGAPORE SLING and Jess sis drink.. err.. i also forgot. we camwhore n more camwhore.. and more camwhore. haha. afta wich we went karaoke. and did i mention 2 times? d other karaoke session was with Jess sis and frens. ok sungguh baby suke life baby skrg.

V.day was celebrated with dearest Iqah .. my super darling giler left me! argh.. tkde maknenyer ah syg u nie.. baby majok k? :D

and Im here typing as this 2 gundu's reading it. (ME, JESS N MY P/T LOVER NAK ALEK SINCE WE ARE GUNDU) oh, tat was written by my superdarlinggiler. ok done.

dearest iqah, taking things slow doesnt mean i dun love darlin. we fyt, yes.. isnt it to strengthen our rs more? im moving on from my 2 years plus rs and that u shud understnd my situation.

having u by my side speaks all.

&& I LOVE YOU, IQAH.

= sweetlove, iqah =

2009-02-16T16:59:00.004+08:00

salams!

i was so blessed knowing this sweethart of mine. she really know hw to capture my hart and im beginning to fall fer her. (: awwwww. (babynura's in love again) (:

i had a wonderful time wen im with her. i cnt describe hw she made me fall but yesyesyes, i had a huge crush on her. i denied so many times and that i shudnt feel that way cause she has a gf and i had mine too. plus, i got to noe that she was seeing my godsis. so who's me in her life. but aftawich, i guess fate brings us togeda and we're taking things slow. i wun not call ths a rebound as this crush has been there ever since.

finally, im breaking free frm stress. (of cosh its hard. its yrs of a rs we're toking abt here. to love is to learn to let go. but still, im happy that e bond had finally break)

from this moment, ill pomish to take care of u and will try not to hurt u sweethart. ure everything i see now.

by, "what if things can change and we can make things better"?
rmbr u said this to me?
i guess it doesnt count anymore.
ure happy with u new love and im happy with my life and love.
yes, im sorry fer leaving our future.
sorry i cnt be ur encourager anym.
u mention not a thing abt ANAF.
thx. at least, i can now rest and move on.
take care and may Allah bless u with good health and pros future.
last long with gf. ;)

&& ILL BE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GAL IN UR HART

= yest..=

2009-02-16T16:49:00.002+08:00

salams!

there are a lot of things that's been destroying my life. damn. but still, babynura can handle kays? (:

i called to ask fer my sim card back frm her. it went ok till idk what happen we kinda fyt. and there she goes saying abt dulu2 punya hal. nah.. over alr k? i don wana hurt ur gf and i def wun wana hurt my precious sweethart. hehe. ok sua.

= happiness falls wen it rains =

2009-02-04T16:24:00.002+08:00

i love u.. but y cnt i just say out d word?? argh..

i drove miles and miles fer an answer.
to figure out wat i really wan.
im here sitting alone with ntg in possession.
with no one to be mine.
i went home just to see her smile.
her kisses and hugs.
den suddenly tears roll dwn my cheek.
wen actually d reality that i pictured,
was her making out with another gal.
so i stop myself to love and hate.
y am i torturing myself fer other ppl?
y am i beaten up fer e rights i had?
wen i love, i love with all hearts.
so i wonder, y love had to stop?
y frens had to cover their fren's ass in d wrong?
"im pregnant" but do ppl care?
"im sick" does she take d damn panadol, warm water and feed me to it??
...baby nak chocolate.. and ur love replies "pegy ah beli sendiri" :)
lectures in my ears. telling and forcing me to stop what im doing.
influencing me, making me happy..
but still, i went to her.
( to love is to learn to let go)
i love enough.. maybe its time to let go.
years dwn d drain.
i believe in myself.

y i din find a better one?
cause wen i stopped, i liked, i love.. i wun drive away. wen there's hiccups, ill treat, wait and start again. it hurts sometimes but this is life. ull just have to understand it. patience and karma.
ive been wronged by some assbitch but she din evn care to resolve d matter up.

din wan me to go away? i din. as a faithful wife, i did what im supposed to do. i alr did my best. and Izan sis was just texting me abt, "apa pendapat u ttg lelaki curang?" and i cnt evn explaint or tell her what i was tinking cause im too badly hurt and i wud fall afta trying to explain.

baby, im strong. u know that. i treated good and i deserve that respect. thanks and may u suceed.

6 mths more.
till FA's out.

= big hug =

2009-02-04T14:45:00.002+08:00

salams!

HECTIC nyer hidup baby!! i dun like. so eventually, things happen and we talk things out and its settled then.

no more k. baby tired alr.

da lah. baby nak nap. later work. (:

SYGSYGSYG!!

= 5th was just a game to u? =

2009-01-28T10:40:00.002+08:00

salams!

as i sit n stare through the night,
i could feel that something wasnt right.
so i took a chance of finding out,
and all these while she was out,
its with her love and not me she talked abt.

so i think and think it through,
it happen beyond my control.
i thought the gal wasnt THE GAL
but surprisingly it is wen the drum rolls.

when ure not even near to being serious, dun fcuking give hope. pls.

= frens should beneits =

2009-01-08T12:58:00.002+08:00

salams!

i wana tok abt frens! i wan!
(:(:(:

but to sidetrack a bit, BABY TAK HAPPY, BETTER APOLOGISED EH AWAK!

ok back.

what type of frens are u close with?
what type of frens do u like to get close to?

so, yesterday, gf told me abt what happen wen she went lepak afta meeting me. (I) save her name as (F) betrayer. and and i LOL la kan. cause (I) told everyone that (F) betrayer ni rampas (R) frm (I). and i LOL again. -.-" seow. zaman nie pon ader rampas2 ker?

if that guy likes u.. he will surely be faithful and dilligently wait fer u. unless u tuu perasan la. perasaan yg that guy wana be with u. aiyoh!! told gf alr, must listen to me. she so degil.

oh ok so gf reach alr. gtg eh.

p.s ZARIINA, miss u okeh.

&& MY ALL. I'M THINKING OF YOU, IN MY SLEEPLESS SOLITUDE TONIGHT. IF IT'S WRONG TO LOVE YOU, THEN MY HART WONT LET ME BE RIGHT.

= addiction; him and her =

2009-01-06T15:12:00.002+08:00

salams!

addiction is hard ryt?
like ure addicted to sumone.
u love him/her.
but it just wun work out.
but u still want that person.

cause they discuss their future.
in every detailed.
he ask fer a migrate.
she's considering.
but things went wrong recently.
but its hard to totally let go.

she's ok.
she wanted someone to love.
she wants him.
she needs him.

fight. but wen she free herself frm all feelings of anger and started her "want to be pampered"
she wants him not to be up tight and free himself too.
that's the only way to start a fresh one but old book.

HIM, she's sorry. no matter what, he's in her heart. sum tings happen to not let go of this love. cause its fragile and special.
-

&& DON'T U WAN THIS SPECIAL SOMEONE OF URS TO SAY I LOVE U STRAIGHT TO UR BLOODY FACE! err.. sounds so rude. haha.

= hurt, love =

2009-01-06T08:46:00.003+08:00

salams!

Being in love is the most wonderful ting u cud ever imagine. Happiness, Sadness, Egoism and so on. But above that, its the togetherness, this 2 soul that promised to be 1.

When u say u love, do u really mean it?

Belum puas ku menikmati,
Kesan kasih sayang kau terpaksa pergi.
Ingin ku terus dicintai,
Walau bisikanmu azimat berduri.

i dowana fall for the wrong person. u haven been satisfying me, instead u went away. even wen ur werds hurts, i still want u to love me.

2009-01-05T12:03:00.001+08:00

If you love her, tell her.
If you miss her, keep her informed.
No she wont get bored of hearing it.
Because She feels the same way too.
It doesnt mean you already have her, you can do as you like.
Wanted or not you decide, then when its too late, some other man took her away,
you'll go thru such painless cries.

:):)

= LOVE, do u really exist? =

2009-01-05T11:26:00.002+08:00

life's pretty rocky these days. dun care abt 2009 or whatever itis. i must be happy. its been playing in my head afta i tok to Farah. haha. tis gal eh.. mintak ke ketok kat kepale. asik nak menang jek.
-

and Kitty, baby here's fer u la.. dun keep okeh. im werking almost everyday. we'll meet on sunday fer reshoot okeh. fer now, dun do stupid tings. DON'T!
-

Aqid!! my fren ask me.. who's that at ur featured fren? and i was like?"huh.. sape? oh.. aqid? she's my gf. like fren gal ting." and she goes like... HANDSOMENYER. -.-" aqid cnfirm kembang. suar sume koyak kan? HAHAHAHAHAHA.
i miss u la.. da lame tk kuar together. always busy with her frens. dun sayang me alr lor this gal.
-

Arye. we kinda get close together these days. we've known each other fer 10 years alr. and counting. she knows wat to do wen i tell her my pobl but sumtimes getting myself into trouble also. -.-"
-

my sisters.. kak El, kak Cherie, kak Jess. korg eh.. very susah tau nak meet. pok kang aru tahu.. nak meet la.. phlsh.. baby miss korg. like miss tol2. tk bedek. hehe.
-

and alot more........
-

im getting older each day.
mature by the second.
yearn by the minute.

while having some convo with a gf,
my heart started to drown,
asking y its not been taken care of.
blame me fer nt choosing e ryt owner,
e one who is a fake,
e one who is a big capital F.

and after all that counts to an end.
if im firm enuf.

stop acting like u care.
stop acting like u do.
stop acting like u love me.
stop acting like u want.
-

someone.. take care of me? pretty pls. (:

&& IF YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE BETWEEN LOVING ME AND BREATHING, WHICH WILL YOU CHOOSE? easy but hard. i wana love and be loved.

= sunday =

2009-01-05T08:24:00.003+08:00

salams!

like i dunno y these days i alw quarrel with a lot of ppl. pleasing everyone is rather hard and not satisfying myself either.

just sumtimes i wish ppl wud understand sum tings in me.
-

SUNDAY. it was superb minus the b. :) haha. cause it can be rather better than now. She really make me special okeh. like..

her fren: eh.. aku nak bual ngn kau private jap.
her: (look at me) ala.. bwk dier skali la.. (she keep saying this till her fren ask fer my permission to "lend her")
her fren: pinjam dier jap k?
her: u wait here jap k? jap jer.. 5 min.

she went off.. she came back and..

her: sorry u. private but important.

-.-" my partner dun do this. like how to say eh. she treat me like her gf. only that we dun hold hands and stuffs. her werds made me special fer a moment that day. and all expenses was by her. i wanted to pay fer my share but she insisted. its not abt the money ppl, its the tot of bringing me out and tc of me.

we joked ard. and joked ard. haha.

oh, speaking of wich, i text aqid that my head's a lil heavy outta sudden and that i wana noe wether she's feeling the same. i foegot eh.. or she din ans my q and goes to a diff topic but related. abt this kuda kepang tingy. sheesh. and i nearly khayal. if i khayal, mati lor.. k dun worry babe, im fine.
-

happy 3rd month darlz.
5th.

&& WHY AM I SO AFFECTED?

= 2nd =

2009-01-02T01:44:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 2ND.

ENJOY YA LIFE TO THE FULLEST.

= countdown =

2009-01-02T01:17:00.004+08:00

salams!

countdown was hell. :):)

cause i was suppos to meet schoolmates and idk who at marina.
but like those yrs, u undastand that the network are always down.
so its hard to cntc but the ting is they aint fetching me, instead leaving a lady out in the crowd. damn, i feel like crying wich i did cause i was super scared that history wud repeat and guess what, ive phobia to crowds wen it comes to big events. -.-"

so i tried calling them but to no avail. i ask this particular special one to meet up but she prefer her frens more. get it? HER FRENS. so leaving me bhind alone , TIRED, FCUKED UP AND CRYING.

no one cares.
-

so, it all ended finally. afta mths of war. she's happy now. i am too. and this particular thing make me strong and uphold my prinsip,

"I WOULD LOVE TO SPEND MY 2009 WO U" to be more precise,

" I WILL NEVER REGRET LETTING YOU GO".

so ladies, if someone said tat 2 u, move on can? hilang satu tk pe. manymany outder waiting. all gals are gorgeous, have diff personality and attractiveness. dun worry, there's plenty to go ard. dun fall back to the same tricks ur x did. u'll regret!

reject those who's fcuked up, cheaters, liars, who has no guts like u know, dun evn noe hw to reply himself rather let someone else know the situation and reply fer him. that's pretty sad cause fer me, i wan to spend my life with an imperfect sumone cause that's wer the perfectness comes in for us.

wen they say they love u, dun get high on their werds, prepare, sumday they may turn their back on u. "i need u", "ure my life", prove it! dun just say it.

-
and i have yet to buy an organiser. thanks to her that i din bought it 2 times wen i went popular! argh!
-

eh.. tersidetrack. haha. so anyways, my 2009 resolution is still the same as before, to be a better person. but in detailed, i wana strive to be the best. sit back and enjoy the ride. as fer love? im reluctant. i dun trust nor distrust. i dun fall easily now. those who's courting, ull need a lot to do. :)

and specially written frm the bottom of my hart, these few days wen A's busy with her life, Ket was the one who helped alot. thanks babe. i appreciate. serious. :):) nx time, up siket kays helpinghelping u. MUAHAHHA. A may ask, y din i kol her up and ask fer help, well, Ket was always beside thru ups and dwns as a fren. ure nt. maybe cause we had this feelings tingy la.. but still, i din see the effort as much. im sorry.(touching tak ket?????)

andand, im sleepy! byebye.

~lovestories 021209.

&& DISAAT INI, HATIKU RINDU BELAIAN CINTA DARIMU. ive always been yearning .

= pathetic can =

2008-12-31T13:00:00.003+08:00

I Love You, You Love Me.
We Are Happy Family.
With A Great Big HugHugHug,
And A Kiss From You To Me.
Wun You Say You Love Me Too.?

haha. suke eh change change. :D:D:D
-

currently sending FYP tingy to fren to compile with the rest, watching "you got serve" and counting coundown to... no! not NYE but work. yes ppl, ive to work lor. everyday la okeh.

anyone want to bring me out on saturday? *smile* haha. ok bye.
and and, im sick. no one cares. :(
and and, im craving fer hugs and kisses and hugs and kisses.

oh, another ting, im fcuking broke. serious! ive 3-4 bucks yest. so i bought bread and tuna. and its fer dinner. haha. and im gg out with 0 cents. cool kan. if my exlink pinish.. den pinish lor. cnt go werk even. pathetic life, i noe.

&& ANYONE WANA DATE ME OUT? haha.

= TAGGED PASSING PASSING EH =

2008-12-31T10:42:00.003+08:00

Regulations of this quiz is:
- People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by them
- Tag 5 + 1 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse
- These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
- Continue this game by sending it to other people.

tagged by zariina

Q:If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
- i want my grandparents, parents and bro to know that i love them more than everything.
-to have an intelligent mind so that... (hah.. takyah tahu ah)
-to have that imperfect special one to be perfect together.

Q: Did you ever think to yourself and wonder what will happen to you in the future?
-no. cause if fate can be changed, y not trying to upgrade and be better now?

Q: Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
-depends eh.

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love?
-i tend to sumtimes but in love, u just have to give and take oii.

Q: Do you belief in Love?
-NOW, NO.

Q: How do you want your life path to be?
-hahs. i want to be surrounded by loved ones, have a career, help out those in need and (prince, are u there? i wana marry u!) HAHA.

Q: If the person you are in love is secretly liking someone, what would you do?
-"look darling, im sure u know who's better?"

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
-there is! there is!

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
-nah.. never can.

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
-well, yes.

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
-specifically? oh, u'll know. :)

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
-never experience it fully.

Q: Are you happy with your life?
-SUPERB

Q: Would you give your all in a relationship?
-I DID and will always do.

Q: What type of friends do you like?
-anything will do.

Q: Do you often wish there was something you could change?
-yes and that i will change it.

Q: What will you look at first when you first set eye on a girl/guy?
-how they bring one self

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction?
-betrayed? wat's that again? hahs.

u've been tagged: aqid, elmo, aisyah, ket, shikin and kakak. :):)

= dispose pirated and get the original =

2008-12-31T10:19:00.003+08:00

salams!

special people to me is those i would waste my time on him/her. :):) does it ans? more to it, eventho that person aint responding as much as i want it. still, duin good deeds has an "A star" to it.

what does special mean to u?
i mean... what does special person mean to u?
what makes them so special?
;)

do u like making frens? if u do, are u picky abt it?
u noe, wen u really wana get to know sumone, its a "confirm plus chop plus everything nice" that u will contact more than the rest with that person u just known. but y? and then.. u guys go closeclose, mushymushy and wahlahh! ure togeda. infact that's not wrong cause wen u tend to give ur time to sumone, and that sumone is willing to share its time with u, u get to know more abt that person. and of cosh, the good tings 1st. the bad ones will come later.. AFTER they get togeda.

how do u avoid? haha. simple, know that person 1st. take it as much time as possible. no hurry. no biddie. what's 1-2 years spending on knowing that person than a lifetime married of to him/her. kan kan kan?

i have a fren who had been a rs fer 8 years and eventually it went down the drain. if i were in her shoes, of cosh ill be sad, in a dilema.. but hey, think positive, there's many outder. whats 8 years compared with 50-60 years being togeda with ur soulmate. it sumhow vanishes the feeling of
" i love my 8 rs. " WTH. snap outta it and move on.

ladies,

&& YOU'LL HAVE TO KISS A FEW FROGS TO FINDOUT WHO'S THE PRINCE. ;) no worries, there enuf prince to go ard fer us. CEH! haha.

= ku merindu =

2008-12-29T12:53:00.002+08:00

salams!

tell me, why cnt some ppl not be tightup wen sumone is better?
oh come on, jealous yes, not till destroying someone's rs, career and such.
correct me if am wrong.

tell me, if sumone has the brains, will sumone stop at a diploma/ degree?
by all means if ure not financially free, ull tend to stop upgrading urself cause all these certs need $$. y cnt u think outta box? how? what if..?

anyways, wun go further. we'll see.

-

WEDDING was hell yeah.

cuzzen married off. and im busy fer sat and sun.
so we eat, drink, dance, sing,write, read and more eating and driking. (:
my relative are damn gerek la sey. and i mean all my fam members incl my aunts, uncles, my small cuzzen and big ones too.
we keep disturbing each other, smile fer no reason and laugh at something lame. and alot more. i get bullied all the time.

" tadi mase adek tgh nyanyi, bibik tgk laki yang pakai baju puteh tuu asik tgk adek jek. atas bawah. tak lepas mate dier. bibik pulak yg horny" and she laughed. she's so cute can. and so i left her with my otha aunt and went to sit with my abg sedare.

he asked "tadi mase adek tgh nyanyi dorg kacau adek kn?" i said i dunno. "tadi abg dgr dorg ckp, wah nyanyi pon lei sms. da abes sms ke belom? da abes ke lom?" and i just smiled.

oh btw, there was 4 guys sitting on the front table near my karaoke site. none caught my eyes la kay. there are quite pleasant looking hor. but i still prefer my --------.

ok bye.

&& ANYONE CAN LOVE ME. BUT ONLY SPECIAL ONE WILL BE LOVED BY ME.

= ure bitchingly sweet la dearest =

2008-12-27T00:13:00.006+08:00

salams!

sorry fer the dead of blog. busy giler can.
tell me what to update? i forgot la.

-basically, FYP haven do. 27th deadline. -.-"
-help-ed ket in FYP. so.. busy la kan. everyday go shoot. :D
-juggling sayangsssssssss with other stuffs (always gado can)

and i freaking miss MY DARLINGS. and AQID. ((:
ok go.

and guess what. i was super shocked wen i saw this,

sweet ryt? :))

&& KU MERINDU, MERINDU CINTA YANG TULUS DARI HATIMU.

= wonderwoman or whatttt =

2008-12-20T00:52:00.000+08:00

= sayangs =

2008-12-17T02:46:00.001+08:00

LALALALALALALALALA

aisyah sayang..
elmo.. (cnnt type syg, later aisyah marah)
HAHA.

i sayang both of u.
thanks fer making me smile.
nanti baby sad2, baby complaint to both of u okeh.

hehe. happy la..

2008-12-17T01:46:00.002+08:00

baek ah.. my comment tak reply.
dier pe comment reply CEPAT LA SUNGGUH
now.. semenjak da lepas lepaskan..
da pandai sweet sweet ni sume.

sayang, u mataer ngn dier suah.
:))

= start now =

2008-12-17T01:06:00.002+08:00

SUMPAH BABY JEALOUS.

write a good good essay abt me? HAHAHHAHA.
sumpah baby da giler.

no la, i read sumtings in sumone's blog. mcm suke gitu. they say like
" i love u.."
" ur the best"

ala.. that sort. mm. mm.. i noe la.. u pon blog abt baby. but i wan more okeh? i love reading ;) ok bye.

= free =

2008-12-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

salams!

im watching this indonesia show, "isteri untuk suamiku" and i swear from the 1st episod till now, i cried. this drama is super sedih!
-

some bring me out can?
i wana watch alot of play and movie. hehe.
and i love food. bring me to eat good food.
plus, i love fun. :D

-

NOTE: dy, my blog very lawa kan? i mean our blog. very pink. tu psl la. i say wait moment u dowan listen. i edit edit here and there. haven finish la. wait finish finish i tell okeh bebeh.

= 16th December 2008, 0127 hours =

2008-12-16T00:40:00.005+08:00

ever heard of this?

"SESIAPE YANG MELEPASKAN AKU, DIA KERUGIAN BESAR"

nyahh. dun ask me y most of my entry are abt love. haha cause i need love. okeh, i need care and concern. i have a closest at hart.. but i dun gain satisfaction. she say she "sayang" me. but.. y am i feeling "nah.. she will definitely forget me somehow and end up with another gal"

CINTA. apa itu cinta? (LOVE, what is love?) orang kate cinta perlu pegorbanan. saya kate cinta perlu kesetiaan. kawan kate cinta perlu kejujuran.

i have not said those 3 little werds fer a long time. not that i dun love anyone, is just that i dun wan to pin hope on someone yet. i have failed in my previous RS over and again. oh, dun mention abt my flings and all, they're fer stay. why cant this someone whom i badly fall in love with stay true? when frm the start, the love's so true, i give my hart and soul (oh baby, mcm paham) but in the end, u found out that she/he aint what u think. y? (im confusing u? ok lets start again but simpler)

everyone shud agree with this "wen i love someone, i give all out" (true?)

"wen that someone fcuk ard, i still stay" (agree?)

"wen i love, i wait fer the return tho i know that person left" (correct me if im wrong?)

BUT.. human's has limit to their patient and soft hearted-ness. they tend to let go of something they had hold so tightly before. why? cause bad memories haunt everytime they wana start afresh. oh, dun come crying to me saying u tink of me everynight wen ure with that gf of urs afta u left. u left me fer her. and now that ure telling me that u regret gg on with her? and that i was better? too late i guess. too late fer regrets.

i fall deeply in love before. i love u but u destroyed the love we made. wer we built frm scratch. i dun control. i dun fcuk ard either. i tried very hard fer this to be alive again. but all i see is ntg change on ur part. i want to make this right. i wana make this imperfection perfect fer us. but im weak without u. ur my pillar of strength. i cnt do this alone. i cnt be alw saying all this everytime i think i shud. i need u to be independent and know what u shud b duin. i need a partner to love and share. not a maid fer me to say "u shud do this, do that".

everyone has problems. you, me. but isnt it great if u cud be by me, sharing this burden. helping me thru. taking 1 prob at a time and ease it fer me. that is why, u see me changing and being open quite a lil bit with my frens. and if u think like flirting and aint fcuking serious to be with me, tell me straight and dun waste my time. we can still cont flirting if that's what u wan.

please love me darling.

= something, somehow things shud change =

2008-12-16T00:01:00.004+08:00

salams!

whenever i have the time, i will sumhow bloghop and update myself about life of frens. and sometime i felt jealous. not jealous of the plus sign they have but this something i dun own anymore.

i yearn to be in RS. i want but its not a need and therefore i alw push it away sumhow wen the question pops out for me. am i confuse? i am in a middle of a few, tell me its true. tell me u wan me, u need me and im all u ever wanted. dun cheat. im fragile, ryt nw im all out fer sumthing called love. as a start not too serious. slowly.

someone to benefit me. no, im nt selfish, i wan both to benefit frm each otha. i wan a life partner fer life to be seriously in love and at the same time work differences out n strive fer d best fer both.

too much to ask fer eh? haha. 2009 oke? better year i wish.

&& DO I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO GO THRU IT? WHEN U STILL WANT; FUTURE BUT HATE WHAT IT DID; PAST. stay or leave?

= let's partayyyy =

2008-12-12T15:05:00.002+08:00

salams!

hello people. today's the end of my sch term. tmr is HOLIDAY! 3 weeks.
and tell me what's ur countdown plans? i may copy! haha.

and darlings, i wana dance. JOM. :):):)

p.s DY! SABAR YEH. OUR BLOG JUST CHANGE SKIN LA.
MUST EDIT HERE AND THERE.
IF TAK KESAH NK BACE CRAP2, NANTI TELL, B ADD JEK. HAHA.

I NEED TO THINK ABOUT WHAT IM THINKING. -.-" tak faham kan? haha.

= qns =

2008-12-11T10:25:00.002+08:00

my zariina darling tagged. but tak bilang. sepak kang!
hehehehehehehehe.

A. People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blog .
B. Tag 8 people to do this quiz . Those that are tagged cannot refuse .
C. Continue this game by tagging 8 other people .

BTW, anyone wana do, do la okeh. ;)

Tag , you're it ! :)

1. What have you been doing recently ?
- FYP, meetings, sch.

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off ?
- oh i din turn it off. it turn off by itself wen my batt's dead.

3. What happened at 10am today ?
- i was camwhore in my sch's pantry. haha

4. When did you last cry ?
- mm.. 2 days ago?

5. Believe in fate/destiny ?
- depends. we can change fate btw.

6. What do you want in your life now ?
- LOVE.

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood ?
- i hate bringing umbrellas. so, i usually will avoid rain.

8. What's your favourite thing to do on the bed ?
- Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep la.

9. What bottoms are you wearing now ?
- 3/4 tights

10. What's the nicest things in your inbox ?
- erm.. too much. wait eh.. "baby.. u look sweet"

11. Do you tend to make your relationship complicated ?
- never.

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone ?
- mm.mm.. nop nop.

13. What was the last movie you caught ?
- wargh! i forgot. but.. mm.. MADAGASCAR!

14. What are you proud of ?
- i love myself.

15. What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say ?
- "oh sorry..hehe..got something later? wanna meet up?

16. What was the last song you sang out loud ?
- *slap head* lupe laaa.

17. Do you have any nicknames ?
- babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

18. What does the newest text say ?
- "im alr hme since i text u jz nw love, sorie 4 the late reply sweet"

19. What time did you go to bed last night ?
- 1-2 am afta toking2.

20. Are you currently happy ?
- no, cause everyone in my class are gg off 1 by 1 cause its hard la today's probl.

21. Who gives you the best advise ?
- entah eh..

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ?
- no.

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night ?
- rizal, by, acit.

24. Is something bugging you now?
- yes, alot of qns unanswered.

25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
- no mood la. so dun laugh.

= close ur eyes, make a wish =

2008-12-09T10:19:00.002+08:00

salams!

"if love between us find its way to merge, accept or leave?"

ive got a pretty much positive ans. and darlings, u made my night la.
love yahs.
-

HARI RAYA HAJI, was a normal day. (: uncle's fam on my mummy's side came. had lunch together and ard 4, i went out to marina square fer bowling. just 3 person. cool or what. i won both games. *evil laugh*.

saturday, i went downtown escape. with my uncle's fam, bro and bro's gf. (6 of us) COOL or whatttttttt. butbut, i dun like cause inverter and rainbow were under maintenance. so i tried all except the stupid train la.. cause it's fer kids. the slow one i mean. we reached at 11 plus and went off at 3 plus , 4? went bugis "WISURY PADANG CUISINE" to have lunch and went off to meet aqid and leave the lovebirds to date. and the whole day .. i went home at 9 pm.

and i love my life. :) oh, will blog again.

= its today, lovestories but tmr its just another =

2008-12-02T14:58:00.002+08:00

salams!

one who taught u what life means.
one who taught u what success means.
one who wants u to be someone.

i understand. truly understand why love hurts. why love involve egoism, vulgarities and hatred. to have a very successful love, one must fail in love before. that's a part to it. the next one, one shud find a person who can accept and adapt.

look at ur parents or any loving couple u can think off, dun just judge the book by its cover. u can see them together, smiling and laughing away but behind doors, u wun noe what they did to each other.

when problem arises, talk. if ure wrong, apologise, learnt, accept and remember. if ur partner is wrong, let her/him say whatever, later explain to her/him that the information they heard is wrong and that u dowan it to happen again.

lets say.. u get to noe this girl/guy. but u forget all abt it. and later this girl/guy came bk into ur life and ur gf/bf got to noe abt it. u told ur gf/bf limited info abt both of u but she/he noes more. but when she/he confronted u, u tense-ed the situation and burst out vulgarities to tell her/him off. is this fair? if so what ur bf/gf noes information which is wrong, that's not the way to explain. let her/him relax, and explain whatever she/he had think wrongly.

i want to succeed. i wana haf a life ppl envy. and i wnt to share this life with my half. curently, im single and insyallah with my parent's blessing, i will get someone who they can accept. ~~oh dun ask if im turning straight.~~

cause i have never share more
to a girl than her.
iwantherbutihavetobestrongtonotfallagain

THIS HAS CHANGED AND FROM THIS MOMENT, (insyaallah) I WILL STRIVE FOR SOMETHING I WANT FROM SCRATCH. and those who has been supporting me, tq. and babe, selamat berjaya. (:(:(:

= relaku terus setia =

2008-11-28T20:57:00.004+08:00

salams!

Rapsodi as a fren now.
she went shop with ma and wiz.
buy fer me cadburyhazelnut ok?
:)

this is the way we do things.

oh!!Shikin, Siti , Hetty and Myself camwhore-ed.
likeeeeeeeeeeeee alot la. ok, i camwhore much much manymany. :D
and i LOVE pixxies.

&& RINDU TETAP HADIR DIKALA INGIN MELUPAKANMU, SAYANG

= just another day of another day =

2008-11-27T08:50:00.003+08:00

salams!

she's never been mentioned in this blog b4. or is it that i forgot that i did mentioned? -.-"

i suddenly miss her.
my used to be bestfriend.
do u read my shits?
do u know that its u?

oh hazi changed too. haha. aaaah. all the best to u guys.
-

oh, im hungry. ok bye.

= honoured to be =

2008-11-26T20:05:00.004+08:00

salams!

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY ASHIKIN!
wished 3 times alr. hahaha.
stay happy and gorgeous babe!

went to her bdae party. none familiar faces. no soccer peeps. no hrc ppl. but a few whom i noe. namely, munaji, reza and gf, norkhail and some other. i make frens. and i like.

and there's this part wen she had to do a speech. she said everyone's name except me. i tot she forgot to mentioned but when everyone's getting "restless" (cause they wana party) she quickly said "WAIT, THERE'S ANOTHER ONE MORE PERSON, nura.. she just started to join the group" honoured la kan. HAHAHA.

so well.. absolute peach and raspberry was a fren.
1 yr of not having it.
and i hope it wud still stay as WAS.

too many things happened ler. will update with photos ones my hands grab them frm reza.

that's abt it. and today, aqid n me met up.
eh! kite tk hug laaaaaaaaaaaaaa. -.-"

&& BLESSED.

= a little breather =

2008-11-25T11:45:00.002+08:00

"I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause something’s changed
You’ve been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave"

apologies if i din ans,
reply or watsoever.
i MAY be out
the whole night and
will not come home.
i am so contented to stay
outta house fer tonight.
and dun worry,
ill be fine.
wen im okeh, ill b back.
pls tc of urself.

= everything will be safe =

2008-11-25T09:15:00.002+08:00

salams!

somethings wrong with me.
; my left eye keep twitching non-stop fer 5 mins. YES, 5!
and while it twitch, i press my small finger under my eye, it still twitched.
-.-" what does it means? i dun feel good. my hart's/ feeling's are all over the plc.
in the morg, i alr haf the feeling of nt gg to sch.
im going out to ease this mind.

sidetrack:
oh pls Allah,
hurt me but not my family.
hurt me but not her.

&& AS I CLOSE MY EYES EVERY NIGHT, I DREAMT OF UR WARMTH FEELING MY BODY.

= quote =

2008-11-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

"SUMPAH AKU SUMPAH NASUHA"

= admiralty games day =

2008-11-24T11:52:00.002+08:00

salams!

everytime i go out with aqid, we will always exercise.
no, not that. we always laugh and laugh.
i dunno why ah.. -.-"

HAHA.

and yesterday she asked, "baby da blog?"
"lom. u blog kan ah"
"haha. okeh.. today my babygirl go admiralty. and today my babygirl lazy to blog. and so on and forth"
and we went on making fun of it.
aiyoh.. susah nak explaint cause our laughs are all craps but facts.
;)

ok la.. i nk cabot ni.
haha. sayangsayangsayang.
;)

zariiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiina, baby pon mish u.
nanti da topup, baby text okeh.

and yes deel, saw ur name in my entry, -.-"
eh.. tk ke ni blog baby. haha. oke bye.

&& AND TODAY, IS TODAY. -.-"

= lalalalalalalalalalala =

2008-11-21T14:28:00.002+08:00

salams!

too long, 2 years..
its been 2 years that i dont do camps anymore.
and i miss my kids.
so, i cntcted 1 of them and hoped for a reunion: them and instructor.
if not, i wan to meet all my kids.
i sincerely miss all of them.

they'v grown. HAHA.
confirm sume step abg2, kakak2.
oh.. jom la.. we meet ramai2.
cause the day we wana part, i cnt help but sigh.
they are the best ppl that came to my life that moment.
and im happy for that 3 days, 2 nites.

and i pomished them that i will make a reunion
just fer them. but... till now.
HAHA.
this 4 mths .. 1 day will be reserved for them.
;)
dun ask why 4 mths.

aqid, pls take care.
take a good rest.
cause from monday
will be filled with responsibilities.
:)

this days, i miss alot of ppl.
why eh?
nak hughug. ((((:
zariina.deel.aqid.daniel.deen.jess.elisha.cherie.ateeq & it goes on..
(oh, tak mengikut susunan markah) -.-"

&& AND THEN EACH MOMENT I SAID I WAS HAPPY.

= holding on =

2008-11-20T11:29:00.003+08:00

salams!

it all started back then.
when i tot i wun fall again.
and i did, fer a moment.
guess it cud stay long,
but hopes are just hopes w/o reasons.

so i began to search again.
this time cause im in need,
it happen like history.
and im prepared.

wat's the use of looking back,
wen u noe that's all a lie.
we'r here as a whole again,
and treasure what's left,
create a new and stay.

(meaningful)

everybody wants a perfect someone.
i dont.
well.. i guess i may consider.
but the truth is, i would rather have a love that's rare.
this love that's yearn by everyone.

and found its u to be..

&& LUCKY IM IN LOVE WITH MY BESTFRIEND. -.-"

= just another day =

2008-11-17T19:15:00.003+08:00

salams!

and im bored.

so its been a while since i played dare or dare or truth or (whatever else u want it to be)
so its been long since i dance. (and baby, im considering to join back or not )
so its been forever that im attached. (eh! mcm paham seh baby)

pardon me today, im bored. that's why.

&& IF SOMETIME LATER IN LIFE..

= lafaz =

2008-11-16T12:34:00.003+08:00

salams!

(intention to no one, just what ive been feeling now afta listening to "lafaz")

ive been hearing all sorts of stuffs frm him and her.
love love love.
why must love be the priority in each?
being in love is so much of a happiness,
but why must it be for awhile?

1) YOU'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME
if so, why ask? admit better wont make u any better. it makes ppl grow hatred in self.

2) THERE'S SOMEONE BETTER OUTDER FOR U
-.-" if so, why ask (again). if u tink she's better than u, dun evn give hope den throw her away like that?

3) 3RD PARTY
i really hate this part!! u wana be in love, this status of "IM ATTACHED". but the thing is that y bother to love wen ure having another "love". get it? im attached and at the same time im playing feelings with all those bastards outder. y? "oh.. adventure" suck that!

! if ure mature and old enuf to tink, why throw away something uve been holding on for so long, this love shit for someone u wun evn noe her background and stuffs. furthermore, y hurt ur current fer a fcuking bitch who's just there to make ur rs fall. and if all of u who's reading and felt guilty, just get away. !

sidetrack:
cukup sudah kesabaran..

&& TIADA YANG INDAH SELAIN MENDENGAR KATA-KATA INDAH DARI BIBIR ORANG YANG DISAYANGI. nothing that is as sweet as hearing sweet words from loved ones.

= its a good effort afterall =

2008-11-10T08:27:00.002+08:00

salams!

yesterday, i went Bradell Heights. Finals singing comp. and too bad i din emerge top 3. but still, finals oii. i got a throphy. eh! ive pics which is so outdated. :D ill upload soon, ok u wait forever.

sat shud be 0211 shopping day. but but.. haha. cute la she. haha. i cnt stop laughing oke. well, wun tell d story.. till she herself blog abt it. haha. so, we had dinner at pizza hut. the tomyam pizza was awesome!

another friday!! OMGOSH la.. i had test that day. and everyday, my class differ. so if ure taking test, u shud b at ur allocated class. i stayed in my class till very last min. and everytime in class, i wud take out the batt of my lap. -.-" after i knew that i was in the wrong class, i went off w/o putting in the batt in before i pull out the plug. seow. and i had only 15 mins of my time to finish up the test rather than normal 30 minutes cause i had to restart my comp. -.-"
DUN MENTION ABT IT.

sidetrack:
baby, pinjam duet? nanti i bayar oke.
(like outta suden)
i din ask back, i laugh all the way.
(and he's with his shyshy smile BUROK face)
:D

&& ABSOLUTELY ACHIEVEMENT (:

= what shud i do? =

2008-11-07T08:38:00.002+08:00

salams!

helloyellomello.

busy la. sorry eh tak blog.
-

so.. before terms holiday, i faced a 2-faced bitch and bastard. like really they are being a bitch man. infront of ppl, talk nicely.. behind, kutuk2 seh. but oh well. so one day wen i cam back to class, i sound them. qn asked, " what do u do wen u know that someone u trust is a 2-faced bitch?"

there are 3 person in the class. 1 of them said dunno. the otha told me to stop toking to that bitch. oh dun ask abt the otha 1 more cause he's on my side.

and wen that bitch went in the class, and so on and forth.. i din hear anything abt me. cause i guess.. i guess la. but we'll see nx week.
-

tell me anotha ting, what shud u do wen u noe that someone u love is keeping sumting? sumting he himself dun rmbr but is important fer him to tell cause y not me.. y her? :))

eh, lagy satu...
HAPPY BDAE ATIKAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
aka. ateeq. aku sayang u.
ok da. black analog, lu tunggu lame2.
HAHAHAHHAHA.

&& WHEN U FIND YOURSELF DROWNING, DUN WORRY. STAY CALM AND THINK. what went wrong.

= its u & me behind closed doors =

2008-11-03T08:59:00.004+08:00

salams!

been a long time that i din blog. -.-"
busy oke. plus, my home's network can throw.
ok i lied.

had superb weekend. kan ? kan ?
haha.
(sleepy now) oh its 9 am, gotto wake bucuk up.
mmmm...

oh zariina sayang, i miss kamu.
kamu nie asik MIA ajer deh!
my value maseh low ah.
sedih kan.
nenok cntc anyone.

sidetrack:

i nak meet zariinaaaaaaa

i nak celebrate anniversaryyyyy.

:))

&& KEPUNYAAN SI DIA

= confidently said; her i always run to =

2008-10-30T01:34:00.002+08:00

haha, ignore title.
i gtto noe this "title" frm sumone.
&& as far as i am concern,

i love my LOVE-STORIES ((:

sunday eh dear.

CINTA PERLUKAN KELUKAAN JIKA INGIN PERERATKAN PERHUBUNGAN.

2008-10-28T03:35:00.003+08:00

Ya Allah,
berikan lah aku ketenangan
didalam jiwa ini
dan lindungilah aku
dari segala malapetaka,
kesedihan, dan
jauhilah aku
dari segala percakapan
yang tidak betul.
Ku Bermohon padamu ya Allah.
berikanlah ku kekuatan,
untuk menempuhi segala
keperitan ini.
ringankanlah segala
cobaanmu dan halangkanlah
semua bisikan syaitan.
makbulkanlah segala
doa-doa umatmu.
peliharalah dia disisimu. amin.

= siapa dia selepas daku =

2008-10-28T02:24:00.002+08:00

salams!

ape gunenyer bercinta jika seharian itu dijamah oleh pergadohan?

she is too egoistic. she never think y that phrase, y am i like this? all she wants is fer me to bit by her rules. happiness? u tink u are? oh yah, u have them by. go ahead. *pushpush* (: dun worry abt me. im fine.

no one that i found to have PATIENCE, HONESTY AND FAITHFULNESS in rs.
rough patches here & there maybe. and im always reminded that human being are not perfect. sometimes u tink u understand that person, eventually, ure nt. when u noe that person fer a long time, that doesnt mean u noe her/him well eh.

as fer me now, love doesnt exist. afta so much hartache i went thru w previous, i rather let this hart of mine stay wer its supos to b years back. haven been saying ilu's fer quite a while now and it may disapear into thin air.

and in some cases wen i said love, d next ting i knew, im getting hurt wich i regret. *shake heads* im tired of all this. and hw much i wan her to change for the better, she always pull herself down. every single time.

i admit, its kinda hurting to see her this way but its more hurt fer me to go thru this motivational talks i had w her everytime. im tired and give me a break and fer ones say that u can do it. nw that, they are here by u, dun let them regret being there fer u. ((:

take care now.

aborted plans to fetch and send. -.-"

DIMALAM INI, DIWAKTU INI. KU MASEH TERKENANG KAN DIRIMU.
syurga cinta abadi, milik siapa?

2008-10-26T19:58:00.002+08:00

salams!

sidetracking abit :)
im doing FYP and tot of blogging.

today was awesome. had steamboat with famz and relative in my mum's side. y steamboat? cause they'r chinese. -.-" but its worth coming cause they'r one of my uncle and aunt that i can depend on and most of my "oh u can do it" are frm them. :)

den headed to bugis to send aqid <3>

and now.. im just waiting. for the change and future.

and the quote goes.. "b lovelove u" hahahaha. ok bye

baby sayang zariiiiiiiiina :)
baby windu hudaaaaaaaaaaaa :)
baby cinta ehemehem! :DDDD

= like whatever ehh =

2008-10-26T03:07:00.001+08:00

salams!

Sincerity
Honesty
Faithfulness

do u have that?

= with right attitude, nothing is impossible =

2008-10-13T14:39:00.002+08:00

salams!

Tell me what’s love? How do u know that you’re in love? And today, a lot may realize that all these while, they’re not in love. And love does make an impact on people’s life. Personality, attitude, love.. hmm, interesting.

First, love is with no conditions. Like of course there will be no conditions or what u all know “rules and regulations” if u know what to do when u love someone. Will u hurt your partner if u love her/him? If u hurt, and u realized, what will u do? Heck care or apologized? And if you’re egoistic but did something wrong, the nature is that u will just “buat bodoh” and continue to fight. And eventually, u will not care of your love’s feelings. Correct me if I’m wrong.

Second, listen, accept and change. I watch this movie where this guy is so sloppy and dirty and smelly and that it was so difficult for him to find a life partner. So, he went to an agency, MATCHMAKE AGENCY. And this agency repeats what I just type and that he should not be lazy and change the way he lives. He did. And he’s happily married. Look, it may be just a typical movie but doesn’t u think that it is so logical that someone had to do something to make a difference?

Third, don’t just stand there and wanted to be fed. If u know that you’re no match for anyone now, (look, I said now) improves yourself. Learn new things, don’t be scared to make mistakes and don’t be shy to ask when in doubts. And who knows, u may be one of “someone” people will love to be with, talk to, be friends.

DON’T just see someone who is good looking, sexy and gorgeous and that u want to be with her/him cause of that reasons. Look how he/she brings herself, how she/he talk and interact; with u and people around. I know someone who is fat, and not so good looking. It aint making me drool over him. But when he talks, he changed my first impression on him. Cause why? He speaks well. Not good in English or his vocabs, its how u want people to think of u. and until now, I love talking to him.

See, if u are confident and with right attitude, u can be there. I’m not perfect but this imperfection is giving me the need to improve.

…….continuation at our blog.

&& SUCCESS COMES AFTER HARDSHIP. WORK HARD AND IT WILL BE PAID OFF.

= everythings gonna be alright =

2008-10-12T21:26:00.002+08:00

salams!

im still sick . -.-

babe, everythings gonna be alright. your free time, u shud pray fer him to get well. all of us will. and hopefully he lives long aite baby. dun cry. if he's well, he wun wana see u cry. :) must calm down and do wats right. start now baby. :))

-

i drop my fyp. haha. idk why bt i just type out a mail and sent it to my IC. and he din reply in 24 hours. so silent means consent? bluur.

im toolazy to update my weeks of schdule. later kays. haha. byebye.

sidetrack:
"i wanted to tell u that i am starting to fall for u" FAMILIAR?
:D
AND i wun tok to strangers. hehehe.

&& KU INGIN DIBELAI DAN DIMANJA.

= oh boy =

2008-10-11T00:15:00.002+08:00

salams!

got to know that friends aint true, oh its "friends" BTW.

and if ure treating me like fcuk! ill do the same la eh. :) i da malas nak "hellohello. hiehie" to fcuked up people like u. cause lemme tell u this, i wun be so low like u and all ur frens and gfs who goes ard in circle and know ntg abt it. oh more like, stupid. *winks* im not arrogant nor whatever cause i know who am i. and trust me, u wun succeed by pulling me down. cause remember, im up there and ure dwn there. GET THAT ?! so in short, ure no match fer me.

and zariinaaaaaaaaaaaa sayang, dier da dpt keje la dier. :) hehe. nanti boleh la belikn baby hp, baju, seluar, skirt and mcm2 kays. ahahaha. ok, perasan. syg u bebeh. muahmuah. i love my 05102008. haha.

AND YES BABY, 5 MORE DAYS.

= 8th Oct; Raya with poly frens =

2008-10-09T01:04:00.002+08:00

salams!

i just came back frm raya-ing. oh oh oh my dear. after i get dress and stuffs, i need to rush report and data analysis. *faints*

(off to wash up)

ok back. rushing thru FYP. will update again wen im done. see yahs.

oh, GOOD NIGHT & toorrow will be a better day. :)

i miss you manymany

= -.- =

2008-10-07T00:01:00.003+08:00

salams!

been truly busy with stuffs that is more important than blogging! (hah!)

*stare screen and sigh*

if only life was easy as ABC. which is harder to adapt, -being in love but no strings attached and u cnt do anything if u gt jeles or -being in a relationship with so much hartache caused by partner.

*shake heads*

i dowan both. i am rushing thru FYP. and bloody no one to help. my CE activities. argh. i haf no energy to do anything nowadays. even that strength wasnt there anymore. i haf no motivation to go sch or werk and love, i din see any hanging fer me to catch. or maybe im just blinded by so many to chose from.

right now, im taking things slow. see what happen next.

p.s zariina bebeh, i mishhhhhhhh kamu!

sidetrack:

a ring perhaps, anyone?

&& JIKA HATIMU TK SEJUJUR KATA-KATAMU, TK USAH LAH KAU BERMADAH HANYA UNTUK MEMILIKI HATI SESEORANG WANITA.

= hari raya =

2008-10-02T22:50:00.002+08:00

salams!

firstly,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA teman-temanku.

im lazy to blog nowadays. too busy with sch and stuffs. alot of pictures to upload. soon aite. ok lah. nk sleep. byebye

GOOD NIGHT AND SWEET DREAMS!